Turn up the volume...

- And Scream! -
Yes. I finally update. This is my statement that I am alive and doing fine. Busy. Exams and moving to another apartment. Whirlwind of things to do under the weather.

Visits from L, F, K^2 and J awhile back. Surreal surprises to the corner of the world. I did think I was Jack Sparrow 'At World's End', you feel me homie?

- And know its Mambo night every night. -
Okay, I cant get over it. Dance.

- Do whatever u like. Its all yours. -

This is as ironical as writing from the start of an empty blog post. Every action is followed by a multitude of possible reaction due to time and place. Random. There is possibly nothing meaningful to John Doe or Jane Doe reading this entry. Yet, I can only hope to open up your mind by carrying on. Its a good opportunity to practice my language at the same time.

你可否有想过你所做过的一切,一切的后果？发生在一瞬间的错误，由你我一辈子的时间承担。晓得自己的一举一动是唯一度过人生的方策吗？不在沉默与过多的思念，不再过着醉生梦死的习惯，你能接受多少改变。人生短短几十年的你我到底想过多久，想过得如何快乐？快速而无极线的欢乐？我就只能在此以后往前看，往前想。悟如早曦，惯如潮水。

University life has been really irratic with irregular timings everyday with the ever constant need to study on your own. "Kiasu-ism"; the constant fear of being behind or on the losing end of your peers. If the university is bent on preparing you for the working life then fear will be your greatest ally. As an engineering, your also taught to work in teams, the irony of beating your mates you feared, now you got to work with. Furthermore, now you got the option of skipping every class and lecture as you are treated as adults in the instution. How you decide upon urself the time spent is further amplified in university.

一个人的一举一动是否需要一个理由？一个人的身活习惯需不需要能对另一个人解释？对得起你自己的事未必对的吃别人。可见此人不是对你一文不值便是你犯了大错。或许你真的只为自己生活， 或许你在隐藏某些秘密。你可否能在天下人的面前得到大众的批评？

依你自己的快乐当成独一无二，以自己的痛苦和别人的痛苦向差得微小无碍。如此过生活，或是相反的去想，你会如何去运用？

Its really depressing to look back and realised nothing good happened. Its worse when u realised those were the best periods of your life to do something good. Be it studying, training and building social skills would a late bloomer make it? Would you rather learn to fail first then succeed or succeed then fail? I must specify that this is not learning to ride a bike, where u fail then u succeed. It is more of rolling a snow ball, from the top of the peak. Avalanching into a huge test of ur mettle just to see what u are made of.

This is not a snowball fight. Not for me. There is no higher being for me, neither would I stoop low now. Its all mine.

Sobz.

My laptop is down!
Now I am really lifeless. Like life-less.

Thank you for being at the airport guys.
*picks up handphone* "I love u~ I love u~"

So much for fReShIeSsSs.
Sucks to the core.

Courses look scary. Long names, uncomprehensible descriptions, unfamilar topics.
If only I can study maths and physics forever.

In doubt to the speech "...most of you would have been hired by companies before you graduate."

Tell me where would I go, who would I work for in the future.

SaGGf. S GG scores! - someday.

Prayer for the player.

The desperation is so high you can feel it on your throat.
Itches every part of your body.
Wrecks every nerve.
Don't fail.

Fade to black 2006.

Gone 2006

Gone into seclusion for the mug.

Gone M.I.A. (Just like 2 "tall guys" I know)

Gone is the blog till the sunny beaches fade away.

Gone is the lifelessness. I should perform expert micro management on time.

20th Jan 2007. 2135 hours, smacking the tarmac.

Come one come all. See the man. Catch the news.

Hello boys and girls, I........

Now seriously how many thought I was going to say I saggf?

Just wanna mug through the last 2 months and get the fuck outta here.

....miss my old life. No matter how bad it was.

My never ending battle of good vs bad.

Gastroenteritis.

Gastroenteritis is an infection of the bowel usually spread by infected food and water. 90% of the cases are due to a viral infection, therefore, antibiotics are usually of no help.

Symptoms may include various combinations of diarrhoea, nausea, vomiting, low fever, abdominal cramps, headache, loss of appetite, weakness and lack of energy. The infection may last from one to seven days.

So it came upon me this illness bringing my life to a complete down. Away. Alone. Suddenly, I was brought away from this great life going for me. Bursary, Fitness First, the dog and even going so far in the debate competition meant accomplishments of my life.

This experience has been added onto the crappy list of hardships while living overseas. The result of keeping ur life on the path to success that u lose something else in the process. Is this the kind of weakness that we all experience in life? Are we all infected by the race to succeed that we are nausea with our lives?

While the source of this illness is unknown, it doesnt seem to matter how it came about. Although it is the nature of every person to point out the cause of our problems. Nevertheless, it wouldn't be "why you eat turbo's snacks !". Maybe just a poor handling of hygiene on that day.

Empathy.

Cheers.